updates (the ones that matter)
May. 22nd, 2024 06:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aeoisIt’s been a while since I’ve written anything here, so hello, hello!
Honestly my life does not feel much different, other than an environment change.
I still feel as though I’m the same as always. Small tweaks here and there!
Two weeks ago I turned 23. Realizing I will only be 2 years away from 25 scares me a bit. There are times I get deep in thought and think about my peers around me who graduated this and the year before. I suppose in my head the age “25” makes me think of having a milestone accomplishment under my belt. An age of “I got something right!”
It does make me sad, the feeling of not exactly knowing what I am doing. However, I know not everyone knows what they are doing at this very moment too. Perhaps, it’s the tinge of jealously I do feel of having wished I could have found a passion for myself too. Enough motivation and passion that could have geared me towards a sign to what the future would hold. A passion or a motivation.
But in the end, we move on! Everyone says I am still young, so perhaps in two years, I will find that passion. Perhaps, it waits for me now, waiting for me to find it. It could be there right now…in front of me. But we move on!
(I could be more pessimistic towards my feelings of myself and my future and a sign of a career, but we won’t for today.)
As a gift to me for my birthday, my friend took me to my first ever rave. I always wanted to go to one! I don’t feel comfortable going alone especially with how late it ends and my commute home at 3 or 4 in the morning is hellish alone. I’m also rather picky about electronic music. This rave though was K-pop themed. Again, was worried because I’m not a big K-pop boy group listener (except for 2nd gen), but immediately one of the songs the DJ started off when we arrived was “Replay” by SHINee! And there was a lot of girl group songs I knew too since I listen to that a lot more! It was really fun! I did sit down for this BTS segment of songs though. I did not know a single one except their like classic, classic songs.
What honestly sucked was how I had work the same day, I got home around 4am? And had to be there at 11am. I had only slept for three hours (my commute to work…). I worked all day too, 11 to 8:30. a really really awful experience to have had. But I survived and overall, I had a fun time! I will be going to two more in June!
More updates! I love KinKi Kids a lot… like a crazy amount. And despite the craziness happening with the group itself, I’m still kicking! And therefore, I joined Koichi’s FC in April, on the opening day! His FC voice calls are so funny by the way.
This year marks the last year of his musical SHOCK. It’s such an important piece of KK history and such an integral part of Koichi. I did something a little crazy and balloted for his Fukuoka shows in September. As I write this, the results aren’t out yet but on the 28th (27th EST I think?). Less than a week now. I’m trying not to think about it too much, or get my hopes too high. But I have been manifesting and praying. Funny enough though, I don’t even have a passport. So yes, I will be applying for mine as soon as I can.
Why is it so expensive to get one by the way? I hate it! I will be eating ice soup for the next month at this point…
I really am hoping (despite me saying I was trying not to get them too high…) that I do hit. Will make a huge dent in my wallet but hey, what else do I have to lose?
His last year doing this musical too, it’s too important for me to miss!
There goes my current updates.
I sorta started feeling fatigue by the end of this, I always do when I write more than I usually do. I need to write more and become used to that…
OK, bye-bye!
Honestly my life does not feel much different, other than an environment change.
I still feel as though I’m the same as always. Small tweaks here and there!
Two weeks ago I turned 23. Realizing I will only be 2 years away from 25 scares me a bit. There are times I get deep in thought and think about my peers around me who graduated this and the year before. I suppose in my head the age “25” makes me think of having a milestone accomplishment under my belt. An age of “I got something right!”
It does make me sad, the feeling of not exactly knowing what I am doing. However, I know not everyone knows what they are doing at this very moment too. Perhaps, it’s the tinge of jealously I do feel of having wished I could have found a passion for myself too. Enough motivation and passion that could have geared me towards a sign to what the future would hold. A passion or a motivation.
But in the end, we move on! Everyone says I am still young, so perhaps in two years, I will find that passion. Perhaps, it waits for me now, waiting for me to find it. It could be there right now…in front of me. But we move on!
(I could be more pessimistic towards my feelings of myself and my future and a sign of a career, but we won’t for today.)
As a gift to me for my birthday, my friend took me to my first ever rave. I always wanted to go to one! I don’t feel comfortable going alone especially with how late it ends and my commute home at 3 or 4 in the morning is hellish alone. I’m also rather picky about electronic music. This rave though was K-pop themed. Again, was worried because I’m not a big K-pop boy group listener (except for 2nd gen), but immediately one of the songs the DJ started off when we arrived was “Replay” by SHINee! And there was a lot of girl group songs I knew too since I listen to that a lot more! It was really fun! I did sit down for this BTS segment of songs though. I did not know a single one except their like classic, classic songs.
What honestly sucked was how I had work the same day, I got home around 4am? And had to be there at 11am. I had only slept for three hours (my commute to work…). I worked all day too, 11 to 8:30. a really really awful experience to have had. But I survived and overall, I had a fun time! I will be going to two more in June!
More updates! I love KinKi Kids a lot… like a crazy amount. And despite the craziness happening with the group itself, I’m still kicking! And therefore, I joined Koichi’s FC in April, on the opening day! His FC voice calls are so funny by the way.
This year marks the last year of his musical SHOCK. It’s such an important piece of KK history and such an integral part of Koichi. I did something a little crazy and balloted for his Fukuoka shows in September. As I write this, the results aren’t out yet but on the 28th (27th EST I think?). Less than a week now. I’m trying not to think about it too much, or get my hopes too high. But I have been manifesting and praying. Funny enough though, I don’t even have a passport. So yes, I will be applying for mine as soon as I can.
Why is it so expensive to get one by the way? I hate it! I will be eating ice soup for the next month at this point…
I really am hoping (despite me saying I was trying not to get them too high…) that I do hit. Will make a huge dent in my wallet but hey, what else do I have to lose?
His last year doing this musical too, it’s too important for me to miss!
There goes my current updates.
I sorta started feeling fatigue by the end of this, I always do when I write more than I usually do. I need to write more and become used to that…
OK, bye-bye!
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Date: 2024-05-22 11:15 pm (UTC)