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wauwa, 23, fan of things
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updates (the ones that matter)
May. 22nd, 2024 06:03 pmIt’s been a while since I’ve written anything here, so hello, hello!
Honestly my life does not feel much different, other than an environment change.
I still feel as though I’m the same as always. Small tweaks here and there!
Two weeks ago I turned 23. Realizing I will only be 2 years away from 25 scares me a bit. There are times I get deep in thought and think about my peers around me who graduated this and the year before. I suppose in my head the age “25” makes me think of having a milestone accomplishment under my belt. An age of “I got something right!”
It does make me sad, the feeling of not exactly knowing what I am doing. However, I know not everyone knows what they are doing at this very moment too. Perhaps, it’s the tinge of jealously I do feel of having wished I could have found a passion for myself too. Enough motivation and passion that could have geared me towards a sign to what the future would hold. A passion or a motivation.
But in the end, we move on! Everyone says I am still young, so perhaps in two years, I will find that passion. Perhaps, it waits for me now, waiting for me to find it. It could be there right now…in front of me. But we move on!
(I could be more pessimistic towards my feelings of myself and my future and a sign of a career, but we won’t for today.)
As a gift to me for my birthday, my friend took me to my first ever rave. I always wanted to go to one! I don’t feel comfortable going alone especially with how late it ends and my commute home at 3 or 4 in the morning is hellish alone. I’m also rather picky about electronic music. This rave though was K-pop themed. Again, was worried because I’m not a big K-pop boy group listener (except for 2nd gen), but immediately one of the songs the DJ started off when we arrived was “Replay” by SHINee! And there was a lot of girl group songs I knew too since I listen to that a lot more! It was really fun! I did sit down for this BTS segment of songs though. I did not know a single one except their like classic, classic songs.
What honestly sucked was how I had work the same day, I got home around 4am? And had to be there at 11am. I had only slept for three hours (my commute to work…). I worked all day too, 11 to 8:30. a really really awful experience to have had. But I survived and overall, I had a fun time! I will be going to two more in June!
More updates! I love KinKi Kids a lot… like a crazy amount. And despite the craziness happening with the group itself, I’m still kicking! And therefore, I joined Koichi’s FC in April, on the opening day! His FC voice calls are so funny by the way.
This year marks the last year of his musical SHOCK. It’s such an important piece of KK history and such an integral part of Koichi. I did something a little crazy and balloted for his Fukuoka shows in September. As I write this, the results aren’t out yet but on the 28th (27th EST I think?). Less than a week now. I’m trying not to think about it too much, or get my hopes too high. But I have been manifesting and praying. Funny enough though, I don’t even have a passport. So yes, I will be applying for mine as soon as I can.
Why is it so expensive to get one by the way? I hate it! I will be eating ice soup for the next month at this point…
I really am hoping (despite me saying I was trying not to get them too high…) that I do hit. Will make a huge dent in my wallet but hey, what else do I have to lose?
His last year doing this musical too, it’s too important for me to miss!
There goes my current updates.
I sorta started feeling fatigue by the end of this, I always do when I write more than I usually do. I need to write more and become used to that…
OK, bye-bye!
Honestly my life does not feel much different, other than an environment change.
I still feel as though I’m the same as always. Small tweaks here and there!
Two weeks ago I turned 23. Realizing I will only be 2 years away from 25 scares me a bit. There are times I get deep in thought and think about my peers around me who graduated this and the year before. I suppose in my head the age “25” makes me think of having a milestone accomplishment under my belt. An age of “I got something right!”
It does make me sad, the feeling of not exactly knowing what I am doing. However, I know not everyone knows what they are doing at this very moment too. Perhaps, it’s the tinge of jealously I do feel of having wished I could have found a passion for myself too. Enough motivation and passion that could have geared me towards a sign to what the future would hold. A passion or a motivation.
But in the end, we move on! Everyone says I am still young, so perhaps in two years, I will find that passion. Perhaps, it waits for me now, waiting for me to find it. It could be there right now…in front of me. But we move on!
(I could be more pessimistic towards my feelings of myself and my future and a sign of a career, but we won’t for today.)
As a gift to me for my birthday, my friend took me to my first ever rave. I always wanted to go to one! I don’t feel comfortable going alone especially with how late it ends and my commute home at 3 or 4 in the morning is hellish alone. I’m also rather picky about electronic music. This rave though was K-pop themed. Again, was worried because I’m not a big K-pop boy group listener (except for 2nd gen), but immediately one of the songs the DJ started off when we arrived was “Replay” by SHINee! And there was a lot of girl group songs I knew too since I listen to that a lot more! It was really fun! I did sit down for this BTS segment of songs though. I did not know a single one except their like classic, classic songs.
What honestly sucked was how I had work the same day, I got home around 4am? And had to be there at 11am. I had only slept for three hours (my commute to work…). I worked all day too, 11 to 8:30. a really really awful experience to have had. But I survived and overall, I had a fun time! I will be going to two more in June!
More updates! I love KinKi Kids a lot… like a crazy amount. And despite the craziness happening with the group itself, I’m still kicking! And therefore, I joined Koichi’s FC in April, on the opening day! His FC voice calls are so funny by the way.
This year marks the last year of his musical SHOCK. It’s such an important piece of KK history and such an integral part of Koichi. I did something a little crazy and balloted for his Fukuoka shows in September. As I write this, the results aren’t out yet but on the 28th (27th EST I think?). Less than a week now. I’m trying not to think about it too much, or get my hopes too high. But I have been manifesting and praying. Funny enough though, I don’t even have a passport. So yes, I will be applying for mine as soon as I can.
Why is it so expensive to get one by the way? I hate it! I will be eating ice soup for the next month at this point…
I really am hoping (despite me saying I was trying not to get them too high…) that I do hit. Will make a huge dent in my wallet but hey, what else do I have to lose?
His last year doing this musical too, it’s too important for me to miss!
There goes my current updates.
I sorta started feeling fatigue by the end of this, I always do when I write more than I usually do. I need to write more and become used to that…
OK, bye-bye!
a hero's journey
Apr. 24th, 2023 06:28 pmListening to old Zelda game music and reminiscing.
I personally envy the hero, I envy the magical worlds I would see through my television screen. How I wished I could simply jump in and live there. The world filled with music and different things to uncover. Although filled with sadness and in need of help, the hero would save the day and bring upon the land the peace it so deserved. Be a brave hero who rides off in the night on his horse, the beautiful melody led by the ocarina, that reminded me that I wouldn’t be alone. As alone as I feel day to day, in this world there was always music and whimsical characters and creatures to see and discover. In this world, I aided the hero in defeating the great evil Ganon.
I envy Link who could sit and be in the fairy fountain, to feel the healing waters and the relaxant music. To see the fairies dazzle and swoop and fly around him. I think about the Great Fairy Fountain and I wonder if maybe she can heal my wounds too. I want to sit there, to bathe in the waters, to feel her magic heal my cuts and scrapes, the pain I hold deep down inside as well.
I understand the troubles that comes to being a hero, but deep down I want to be one too. I want to meet the world, to help too. Someone as young as Link could save the world, can I too? Muster your strength and courage, take the wooden sword and work your way to achieving greatness. To then unlock the weapon you worked so hard to obtain. Using it to go head to head with the Great King of Evil.
Harmonia (1998), a review
Nov. 23rd, 2022 11:43 pm
A drama blend of genres I love, mixed with the stylistic pleasures of the late 90s, Harmonia has become one of my favorite dramas to date.
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I had this drama on my watchlist for a while now, as both a Kinki Kids fan and a Miki fan, this was a drama catered towards me. The genres weren't even a big factor yet until I had watched episode 1 and realized this was truly a drama made for me. A gripping premise and intro song (sung by Shonentai which is quite honestly a beautiful piece of music that is very fitting for this drama, I could also write about how much I adore its' composition), Harmonia is intended to make you want to see more. Tagged as a romance drama, there is a big mistake to come into it as such. I really don't see as such, it lacks in the romance but the growth of the two characters relationship and trust is very beautiful. The main focus is more on Yuki than anyone else. From the beginning you learn about her and you learn to love her. By the end of the drama, I was only rooting for her happiness. Hideyuki does too. From him wanting her to find her "true sound", her harmonia, her true self, you see Hideyuki push himself and Yuki to finally be able to reach that. No matter how much has to be sacrificed.
Music and the cello are a main focus in the story, you learn how much this means to both Hideyuki and Yuki both. It's really fun seeing them play, if I recall reading that Koichi did practice playing for this drama. Don't quote me on that, I'll be back with if that is true or not.
The soundtrack is quite beautiful, the original songs and also the beautiful classical pieces used (for me, these songs are forever changed due to this drama). The intro song hauntingly beautiful and befitting for this drama. The sound design was very fun too, not to sound like a "I was born in the wrong generation" kind of person, but I adore the very 90s sound designs from dramas and films. A true 90s drama with the sound design and the very crazy angles reminiscent of what inspired Silent Hill's own camera angles. I enjoy it so much! The color gradients are really interesting too, it's a rather toned down show of colors. From Yuki's bright all white room, to the total darkness of Hideyuki's apartment, it follows along with the sad and frightening world they live in. (Maybe I'm reaching?)
The acting, even though I am not the best judge on it, was good. Despite the script lacking in what she could say or do, Miki truly excels in portraying so much with just her eyes. From the dramatic zoom ins to the soft look she gives when she looks at Hideyuki, Miki portrays it all so well. Her cello performances were beautiful as energetic but also while keeping a straight face, gives it a very robotic image. I adore Miki, I adore Yuki and I adore the performance Miki gave as her. Her acting was great as always, and she truly does carry so much of it despite the restrictions of what she can do with her character.
Koichi is a solid actor throughout it all, maybe as a fan of his I find it funny seeing him act, so some parts made me giggle, but his talent of always being amazing at playing a crazy character holds true here as well. His reactions and softness towards Yuki is also very sweet.
With such a good premise and sadly with such a short amount of episodes to truly explore it all, there is a lot the story lacked in. There were times it did feel repetitive, however, you see this as a long arc for Yuki finding her true self. All 9 episodes feel as though an arc of continuous efforts of finding. It feels very fitting for the certain repetitive moments later on in the show. There is an increase in ridiculous events later on in the show, but it never truly bothered me. My one true complaint is how much more in depth I wished the story could have gone if there were more episodes, more on certain characters and their backgrounds, it only makes me wonder how much more the novel may have had. It's the big issue on creating a drama based off a novel, what becomes omitted and what stays? Will the audience still understand or hopefully they don't question about this or that. Harmonia was able to do well for me with just very little. Around 45 minute long episodes but many things happen and a lot of information is given. If given a 10th, I do would have wished on an in depth look on Yuki's powers.
From the beginning of episode 1 to the last in episode 9, you learn and grow to love Yuki and want the best for her. You also follow Hideyuki throughout the show in what might quite actually be just pure suffering. Mixed in with the beautiful sounds of peace he feels with Yuki. No but really, starting from episode 1 to the end of the show, you do see Hideyuki get hurt a lot and deal with losses of many kinds. Make a count on your rewatch of it, if you ever do.
I want to write more however, I don't want to spoil anything else. I truly did enjoy this drama, there is so much more I wish I could talk about! From Yuki and Hideyuki's relationship and how it develops, to how beautiful Salut D'Amour is, how funny the whole Lumay stuff is. To how the one scene in episode 7 reminds me of Final Fantasy 7, the Doctor and how easily gullible she is. This drama did well when it was out, Miki earned herself an award for this role and the ratings were a solid 13.8% average, the final episode getting a 16% audience rating. However, I feel in 2022, I never see it talked about as much as I'd like for it to be! It truly feels like a gem.
Music and the cello are a main focus in the story, you learn how much this means to both Hideyuki and Yuki both. It's really fun seeing them play, if I recall reading that Koichi did practice playing for this drama. Don't quote me on that, I'll be back with if that is true or not.
The soundtrack is quite beautiful, the original songs and also the beautiful classical pieces used (for me, these songs are forever changed due to this drama). The intro song hauntingly beautiful and befitting for this drama. The sound design was very fun too, not to sound like a "I was born in the wrong generation" kind of person, but I adore the very 90s sound designs from dramas and films. A true 90s drama with the sound design and the very crazy angles reminiscent of what inspired Silent Hill's own camera angles. I enjoy it so much! The color gradients are really interesting too, it's a rather toned down show of colors. From Yuki's bright all white room, to the total darkness of Hideyuki's apartment, it follows along with the sad and frightening world they live in. (Maybe I'm reaching?)
The acting, even though I am not the best judge on it, was good. Despite the script lacking in what she could say or do, Miki truly excels in portraying so much with just her eyes. From the dramatic zoom ins to the soft look she gives when she looks at Hideyuki, Miki portrays it all so well. Her cello performances were beautiful as energetic but also while keeping a straight face, gives it a very robotic image. I adore Miki, I adore Yuki and I adore the performance Miki gave as her. Her acting was great as always, and she truly does carry so much of it despite the restrictions of what she can do with her character.
Koichi is a solid actor throughout it all, maybe as a fan of his I find it funny seeing him act, so some parts made me giggle, but his talent of always being amazing at playing a crazy character holds true here as well. His reactions and softness towards Yuki is also very sweet.
With such a good premise and sadly with such a short amount of episodes to truly explore it all, there is a lot the story lacked in. There were times it did feel repetitive, however, you see this as a long arc for Yuki finding her true self. All 9 episodes feel as though an arc of continuous efforts of finding. It feels very fitting for the certain repetitive moments later on in the show. There is an increase in ridiculous events later on in the show, but it never truly bothered me. My one true complaint is how much more in depth I wished the story could have gone if there were more episodes, more on certain characters and their backgrounds, it only makes me wonder how much more the novel may have had. It's the big issue on creating a drama based off a novel, what becomes omitted and what stays? Will the audience still understand or hopefully they don't question about this or that. Harmonia was able to do well for me with just very little. Around 45 minute long episodes but many things happen and a lot of information is given. If given a 10th, I do would have wished on an in depth look on Yuki's powers.
From the beginning of episode 1 to the last in episode 9, you learn and grow to love Yuki and want the best for her. You also follow Hideyuki throughout the show in what might quite actually be just pure suffering. Mixed in with the beautiful sounds of peace he feels with Yuki. No but really, starting from episode 1 to the end of the show, you do see Hideyuki get hurt a lot and deal with losses of many kinds. Make a count on your rewatch of it, if you ever do.
I want to write more however, I don't want to spoil anything else. I truly did enjoy this drama, there is so much more I wish I could talk about! From Yuki and Hideyuki's relationship and how it develops, to how beautiful Salut D'Amour is, how funny the whole Lumay stuff is. To how the one scene in episode 7 reminds me of Final Fantasy 7, the Doctor and how easily gullible she is. This drama did well when it was out, Miki earned herself an award for this role and the ratings were a solid 13.8% average, the final episode getting a 16% audience rating. However, I feel in 2022, I never see it talked about as much as I'd like for it to be! It truly feels like a gem.
My Love for Topaz Love
Feb. 9th, 2022 10:28 pmMy very own "you're looking too deep into this" analysis and big rant about how much I love this song or something!
I simply just love to think and I have no outline so RIP
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I simply just love to think and I have no outline so RIP
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my favorite things
Feb. 7th, 2022 06:47 pmI wasn't sure what to post about specifically yet. The best idea I have currently is what I am typing out right now, which is just a post about the things that bring me joy.
I'm only 20 but as someone who has been online since she was 11 (not a good thing-), I've had a lot of different interests. However, my hobbies don't seem to change. But this post is not about the long long list of things I had an obsession with! It's about the current me.
My favorite things all seem to categorize themselves really well into one place: art.
From J-pop idols to horror movies, I seem to enjoy seeing another person's creation and I like to create things myself. Art is frustrating for me, creativity is something I seem to think I lack a lot of. However, it is really something that brings me joy.
So to continue on about the ACTUAL subject of this entry:
( Read more!! ) I really wanted to write more but I got tired lol! One day I'll either continue this or just make solo posts about these things
I'm only 20 but as someone who has been online since she was 11 (not a good thing-), I've had a lot of different interests. However, my hobbies don't seem to change. But this post is not about the long long list of things I had an obsession with! It's about the current me.
My favorite things all seem to categorize themselves really well into one place: art.
From J-pop idols to horror movies, I seem to enjoy seeing another person's creation and I like to create things myself. Art is frustrating for me, creativity is something I seem to think I lack a lot of. However, it is really something that brings me joy.
So to continue on about the ACTUAL subject of this entry:
( Read more!! ) I really wanted to write more but I got tired lol! One day I'll either continue this or just make solo posts about these things
